Last week I turned 40 and I took some time to reflect on how I’ve been doing and where I’m at in my weight loss journey. I acknowledged that I have not been doing well during this time of quarantine and I’ve been using it as an excuse to eat whatever I want. And in doing so, I have gained a lot of weight in the past few months. I’m definitely upset about it and disappointed in myself. But I know that I’m the one that has made poor choices and I’m the one that can turn it around.
I know that during this time it is so difficult for most of us, and for me I feel like when I am under a lot of stress and experiencing a lot of anxiety, I turn to food to provide comfort. And I know that it’s not healthy and that I need to change my habits. So I am determined to not let this time get away from me and I’m going to focus more on taking better care of my body so that I can see the scale moving down instead of up. I know that the number on the scale shouldn’t matter so much, but to me I have been stuck in the 200s for so long and I’m really tired of being this heavy. I feel like the older I get, the harder it is going to be to lose the weight. So I need to take advantage of this time in my 40s to get healthy so that I can live longer and watch my kids grow up.
This week I have finally been feeling better, so I have been more productive with my time and I have been staying on track for the most part. I have been tracking my food and although I have gone over my points a couple of days, it wasn’t by much so I think that will make a difference when I weigh in on Saturday. This week I have been focusing on moving more and eating what I have planned. In the past it has been too easy for me to not eat what I’ve planned and just go get fast food, but I’m trying to limit eating out and making better choices.
So my husband is now in the field planting and I’m hoping that the weather stays nice so all of the crops can be planted quickly without any problems. My kids and I have been spending a lot of time outside and that definitely helps a lot. They are happy to play outside and I enjoy the fresh air and the exercise that I get. I’ve been getting a lot of steps in and I know that will make a difference in my weight loss. I’m sure that my weigh in on Saturday will finally be a loss, so I am actually looking forward to it and excited to move forward with my weight loss journey.