The past few weeks I haven’t been on track and I can’t help but feel like a failure. I knew that my weigh-in this week wouldn’t be good and that I would have a gain. I just can’t seem to get myself back in the right mindset and I’m afraid that my weight is going to just creep right back up to where I started if I don’t things under control now.
Things have been stressful for me and I’ve used that as an excuse to overeat and I feel awful. I don’t want to stay in this cycle of losing/gaining the same 10-15 lbs. I think a lot of it is my thinking and allowing myself to make excuses every time I slip up. Instead of making excuses for why I’m not staying on track I need to push myself to stay within my points as much as I can. And for the times that I might slip up I have to get back on track right away and not use it as an excuse to continue to overeat.
I know that in the past I would have quit already and just given up and gone back to eating whatever I wanted. But I’m not giving up on myself and I am not going to quit, no matter what. But I am also not going to keep excusing my poor choices and allowing myself to overeat. I have to make changes because the lifestyle that I have been in has caused me to become so overweight and unhealthy and things need to change.
So I’m going to make sure that I have everything planned out this week and make sure that I stick to it. I’m also going to create some new habits, such as filling my water bottle with cold water first thing in the morning so that I can start the day off drinking water and I can increase my water intake. I also am going to put in 30 minutes of exercise 5 days a week on my elliptical. I have to keep moving forward or I am not going to reach my goal.
By the time I turn 40 next April, I would like to have reached my goal weight. In order to do that, I need to implement these changes and work harder. I want to live a long time so that I can watch my children grow up and in order to do that I need to take better care of myself. I am determined to keep working at it no matter how long it takes.